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Do you belive what I sing now?
a sequel to my unwritten and rather bad childhood
Created on 2004-04-24 19:13:49 (#2940551), last updated 2005-08-02
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Basic Info| Name: | Isaak Evoleros |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 05-25 |
Bio"...I think you would have been a great boyfriend. Honestly, there was nothing I would have loved more than a boyfriend who cherished me the way you did- I just did the stupid girl thing and chose an asshole..."
"Daniels all shaken up because I actually wanted to have something to do with him today.
Honestly, I just want someone to talk to. Someone who I'm not suppose to sugar-coat things with, someone who knows me better than I know myself- dont get me wrong, Scotts fabulous and I love him, but I'm not real with him, I cant be real with him- when I'm real with people I end up getting called a bitch (or a cunt, and a dramaqueen *cough*). I may be all of those things, but thats who I am, and I was always always myself around Daniel. For a second it was nice, feeling like he was my friend again, but appearently he's not, and I'll deal. I just want more people that I can be myself around, that when something bothers me, I can tell them and they dont hold it against me, or someone who will just listen to me, genuinely listen to me, when I want to talk about something that hurts me. I dont have anyone in my life like that. I use to.. but thats over now. Blah, I feel like shit. I need a good cry."
The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face
I just made love with your sweet memory
One thousand times in my head
You said you loved it more than ever
You said
You remain, turned away
Turning further every day
I talked for hours to your wallet photograph
And you just listened You laughed enchanted by my intellect
Or maybe you didn't
Do you believe what I sing now?
---------------------------------------------------------------
The day of the damned soul dawns.
Thus was the end of a childish love.
Thus was the end of my youth.
The dusk sings these songs, while the angels look on.
The air is thin with truth.
The demons wait here for my soul.
The demons are love in our eyes.
It seems godless and real, the way that you feel,
And the way of uprightness despise.
Love for the girl with the wings of a raven.
Love for the girl with a soul of glass.
My love is both real, and a fantasy.
'Till the sun on my last day has passed.
Reality washes over me.
The sun is on my back.
It burns in my eyes, while I long for the night.
My empty heart bleeds black.
"Daniels all shaken up because I actually wanted to have something to do with him today.
Honestly, I just want someone to talk to. Someone who I'm not suppose to sugar-coat things with, someone who knows me better than I know myself- dont get me wrong, Scotts fabulous and I love him, but I'm not real with him, I cant be real with him- when I'm real with people I end up getting called a bitch (or a cunt, and a dramaqueen *cough*). I may be all of those things, but thats who I am, and I was always always myself around Daniel. For a second it was nice, feeling like he was my friend again, but appearently he's not, and I'll deal. I just want more people that I can be myself around, that when something bothers me, I can tell them and they dont hold it against me, or someone who will just listen to me, genuinely listen to me, when I want to talk about something that hurts me. I dont have anyone in my life like that. I use to.. but thats over now. Blah, I feel like shit. I need a good cry."
The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face
I just made love with your sweet memory
One thousand times in my head
You said you loved it more than ever
You said
You remain, turned away
Turning further every day
I talked for hours to your wallet photograph
And you just listened You laughed enchanted by my intellect
Or maybe you didn't
Do you believe what I sing now?
---------------------------------------------------------------
The day of the damned soul dawns.
Thus was the end of a childish love.
Thus was the end of my youth.
The dusk sings these songs, while the angels look on.
The air is thin with truth.
The demons wait here for my soul.
The demons are love in our eyes.
It seems godless and real, the way that you feel,
And the way of uprightness despise.
Love for the girl with the wings of a raven.
Love for the girl with a soul of glass.
My love is both real, and a fantasy.
'Till the sun on my last day has passed.
Reality washes over me.
The sun is on my back.
It burns in my eyes, while I long for the night.
My empty heart bleeds black.
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311, apocalypse now, aquabats, cool looking girls, elliot smith, getting my own website, grapefruit juice, having nothing to do, homestar runner, looking cool, minor chords, modest mouse, moving out, mxc, my webcam, nostalgic new nintendo, old school nintendo, on the soap box, pirating music, playing bass, shopping at goodwill, starting a band, the pixies, the royal tenenbauns, the toadies, weezer
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